At the end of the movie "American Beauty", Kevin Spacey has an amazing monologue about
the last second of his life and the post-death feelings he has about the world:
~~I guess I couId be pretty pissed off
about what happened to me,
but it's hard to stay mad when
there's so much beauty in the worId.
Sometimes I feeI like I'm seeing
it all at once and it's too much.
My heart fills up like a balloon
that's about to burst.
And then I remember
and stop trying
to hold on to it.
And then it flows
through me like rain,
and I can't feel anything
for every single moment...
of my stupid little Iife.
You have no idea what
I'm talking about, I'm sure.
But don't worry.
You will someday.~~
I think I know exactly what he's talking about. At least
in certain moments I know. Still learning how to stop
trying to hold onto it. So much beauty....even in the
things we deem undesirable. Beauty everywhere.